She’s Right…

” People always take for granted those who are good to them. Human nature is selfish as fuck. If you’re consistently good to someone, they will most certainly get used to that from you, and expect you to deal with their bullshit all the time. We can only take the “im sorry’s” so much. All we can do is do thing for others whole-heartedly, and not expect things in return, and be okay with the fact that we made someone else’s day. Because more often than not, people will disappoint us. All we can bank on is hope. What about the reassurance that people will give us the same back? Its rare, just like we are. So when you find it, hold onto it. I think we both find happiness in the presence of other people’s happiMESS. As long as they’re happy, we somehow find a way to deal with the rest. I’m not gonna play it like I haven’t taken people for granted, I’m just saying it’s not that fucking hard to take time out of you busy day to muster out a tiny bit of selfLESSness for the ones you love. You know what the truth is? The truth is, no one will EVER be good enough for us. We want what we want, even if they’re not worthy. Like Aldie said in his blog, “The things you want, you can’t have, and the things you have, are the things shy of the things you want. Oh, selfishness.” Hes right. In this life, no ones gonna get it perfect. So we have to let go, and let flow. It’s not worth the pain and confusion to sit and try to figure things and people out, or try to find the answers to the mind boggling questions of life. We just have to let life answer those questions for us” – Stefanie Kristie Cantos

7 Days.

FUCK YOU AJ.

Back in the day…

So here I am again people on this boring ass Sunday. Friday was a good day. I decided to kick it with my high school homies. I have bailed on them for the past 2 or 3 weeks. I apologize fellas. But anyways they decided to hit up the Dodger Pre-Season game against the brewers. Which ended up in the Dodgers losing and us leaving after “Take Me Out to the Ball Game”. It was chill kicking it with them again. Blazing before the game is always a pleasure. Free Dodger dogs thanks to Casey and bags of cracker jacks. Even though our seats were on top deck, the view was still beautiful. You can never be mad wherever you sit because you can still see everything. After the game we hit up Leos taco truck which was a fat, dirty, meal. It was still bomb though. It was fun being with them again after a couple of weeks. These homies keep me lifted when I’m down and out. Lifted as in faded as fuck. Fat bowls. Fat milk. Fat meals. Until next time people.

Much love,

Avel John Aquino

Stefanie Cantos Once Said…

“Bitches will be bitches” – Dennis Obusan

Its not my job to make people think the way I do. I can be opinionated, but highly open minded. A dear friend made me realize that people will do what they want, no matter what you say. Even if they take what you say for granted. Its not my job to make people understand where I’m coming from either. So I’m putting my hands up now. I’m throwing in the towel. I call it quits. I’m always gonna be here for all the people that are important to me..but if growing up means growing up by ourselves & making our own mistakes, then I rally need to takea  step back. Its not that I’m judgemental, I just get defensive of those I care about & if thats my flaw then so be it.

Bored at work.

Hello world. Here at work thinking about life. Which I always think about. All day everyday. The homies are taking Charisse at the airport. Too busy to come visit my ass at work. Assholes. But anyways, I’ve been thinking a lot lately. I usually don’t spread my shit on the internet, but fuck it, its a blog kinda journal type of thing. Anyways, I’m surrounded by a bunch of dramatic people. I don’t want to be mean but the shit I hear about is getting ridiculous. I know NO ONE listens to my words of wisdom when I let them know what’s up. Maybe they’re not taking it seriously, or maybe they just think it will work out their way. But from all the times I’ve given advice, they have failed. I’m giving them advice because I care. Maybe I haven’t been in a relationship but I do know the finer things in life. You probably think I’m just a pothead that doesn’t know what their talking about. Nigga please. I live life to the fullest. People say “you’re not happy”. Bitch, I’m happier than you are. Haha that’s whats up. Yeah, there are times when I think about shit and just get straight up frustrated or depressed. But that happens rarely. I have everything I need in my life. So my last words of wisdom the world out there, get on my level.

Much Love,

Avel John

Fresh Start…

Hey there people, aj here. I deleted my old posts because I thought it was stupid and whack. So here I am again, not going to talk about what I did during the weekends, but my thoughts on things. Maybe I’ll talk about what I did here and there but we’ll see whats up. I posted this on my myspace awhile ago but I’ll post here…

So I just got back to work from break. I just had a pretty good conversation with one of my good homies. I’ve been thinking, many people are really fucked up. I would love to pick those people out but i’ll let them be. I’ve heard a lot of stories about people I know. Many of the stories aren’t too good either. I just think they need to grow up. Like seriously, right now. Some of these assholes only think about themselves. They should really think before they start to fuck up peoples lives. They have feelings you know. But I guess people just don’t care. If that’s how you want to live your life, and that’s the fun you have, so be it. One day you’re gonna fucking realize how inconsiderate and dumb you really are. I really hate how people act these days. How can you look at yourself as such an innocent human being. How can you act like you don’t do anything wrong. You may have many friends to back you up, but I know for a fact you’re gonna end up fucking them over. Because that’s just how you really are. I hope one day, you end up so depressed and lonely, and you can actually feel what other people go through. That would be a moment to remember. Maybe you should listen to what other people tell you so that you can actually think about it. In the end, you won’t be happy my friend. Goodluck. XOXO.

But for the real niggas,
Lets start off by telling you how much my homies mean to me. I really appreciate the people in this beautiful, yet boring, life of mine. From all the blunts, bowls, and greens. The parties at Nikkos, the kickbacks & the pool at JJ’s. 5th Street. The FUCK BITCHES, GET MONEY. The 88’s. Tha Kingz. REDRUMS and 4ONES. Stefanie Cantos & Charisse Ortega. These homies are the realest and illest.
Much love,
Avel John Madrid Aquino.